One Day

The silhouette of a warrior woman with storm clouds in the background.One day

I shall bare my soul
It’s dark and cracked.
The cracks are unsealable, letting the light out
The darkness is remarkable, its weight tires me out
I will show you who I am and what makes me
What keeps me alive and what breaks me
A training you may feel, before you take the hike
Where to take shelter, how not to let the lightening strike

I will show you the hits and misses the holes and crevices,
The nooks and corners of me.
What holds me up, what pushes me down,
What part of me I never want to see

Let me shed light on my heart on what makes the pain go away,
To only come back at every stab and where I sink back in and stay.

I will bare you my story for you to know it’s not my last escapade,
Dont want a shoulder just need your words to help me sharpen my blade…

जनाज़ा प्यार का



रूठ जाये हसी तेरी लबो से ऐसी कभी दुआ ना की थी
तेरी बरबादी की वजह मगर तू ही है!
खोल आँखें और देख तेरी हालत,
की जनाज़ा भी तेरा, और जनाज़ा उठाने वाला भी आज सिर्फ तु ही है!!

इम्तेहान था मेरा जब तू मिला था मुझसे मेरी सब्र की थी परीक्षा,
तेरा वास्तव जब आया नज़र, मेरे मौत का अपराधी भी तू ही था.

तेरा वजूद तेरा ईमान तराशा था बड़े प्यार से,
अब जो उसमे लग जाएगा दाग वही तेरी ही बेईमानी से है

मेरे प्यार के सन्नाटे को दरिया की तरह ही समझले ए बेवफा,
की निगल जायेगी जिस अंगार को ये तूफानी लहर वो तू ही है!!

ना सोचा था की तेरे प्यार को एक दिन इस क़दर नफरत बदल जायेगी,
की तेरी चिता को जलाने वाला दीपक भी तू ही है!

प्यार की मेरे रूह देखी है तूने,
जिसमे तू समा जाएगा उस ज्वाला का तूने देखा नहीं कहर
महत्तम मना रहि हु मौत का तेरे,
खुशिया लूटा रही हूँ मेरे लहू के बेहने पर…


Rooth jaye hasi teri labo se aisi kabhi dua na ki thi
Teri barbaadi ki vajah magar tu hi hai!
Khol aankhein aur dekh teri haalat,
Ki janaza bhi tera, aur janaza uthane wala bhi aaj sirf tu hi hai!!

Imtehaan tha mera jab tu mila tha mujhse meri sabra ki thi pariksha,
Tera vaastav jab aaya nazar, mere maut ka apraadhi bhi tu hi tha.

Tera wajood tera imaan tarasha tha bade pyaar se,
Ab jo usme lag jaayega daag wohi Teri hi beimaani se hai

Mere pyaar ke sannate ko dariya ki tarah hi samajhle ae bewafa,
Ki nigal jaayegi jis angar ko ye tufani Leher wo tu hi hai!!

Na socha tha ki Tere pyaar ko ek din is qadar nafrat badal jaayegi,
Ki Teri chitah ko Jalane waala deepak bhi tu hi hai!

Pyaar ki mere ruh dekhi hai tune,
Jisme tu samaa jaayega us jwaala ka tune dekha nahi kahar
Mhattam mana rahi hu maut ka tere,
Khushiya luta rahi hun mere lahu ke behne par.



A Fitting Reply

What happens when a heart is broken? Tears, bloodshed even sometimes. An illusion is created and you feel that the feeling of loving the idea of love, is love in itself… here she tried, she gave all she could, but she was still incomplete, she was still incapable of fulfilling and fitting the requirement of what he needed. She broke into pieces, shards, with jagged edges which hurt her more than anyone else, she tried to live on, and when she saw how she was being manipulated, she decided to take a step and reciprocate, this time with the clear intention of hurting rather than being hurt. Never ever try to tease an injured lioness they say, the results will not be pleasing at all….!!


She moved on but sometimes anger and resentment pulls you back, and holds you until the answer is equally devastating to the situation. When he chose to remind her of his existence and wish her well being and happiness as she moved on, she wrote him a reply, she hoped that it hurt, and she knows it’s not over yet. She hopes and waits for the day when the hurt is visible and pain uncontrollable for him!

Dear Mr. He,

 I am not sure I know of who you are, but I believe, you might have missed out on something important here. The she that you are trying to wish is no longer alive and your name sounds familiar to the perpetrator of her death. She did speak of you a lot more than she breathed and let me assure you, very much like her promise she had given to you, she did love you till her last breath. It is hard to convince a dying person in love that the love and devotion is in itself the poison that is burning her. She was quiet during the end, never let you know her pain, but her silence should not be misconstrued to be her forgiveness. Her demise was not sorrowful, however, it was more of a relief to many to see her leave rather than suffer any longer. However, she did leave me behind as her replacement, a stronger willed, pessimistic, non trusting individual. Her life taught me to not give more than you get and get more practical in life as love is a mere eye wash for your hormones. Let me assure you if she was to live today, she may not have read this email or approved of it and may have continued to be manipulated by your lying behavior of which she was convinced to be true. She walked away into the unknown on the day she realized that her belief in you was a false mirage and that it was her own built. The searing hot blade of breach of trust and her own foolishness burnt into her every day she lived. The shock of her own fault was strong enough to cause her own demise.

 Had you really meant those wishes, Mr. He, I don’t believe you would have ever done what you did, you wouldn’t have let her go.

 I do sincerely hope that this email finds you in good spirits and that you continue to live your life unaffected and indifferently as you have done so far and that no one else should fall into your web of delusions. May you have a happy life and do not try to contact me or try to bring her back to life at any cost. 

 This time it will only cost you.

 If you would like to tell me that I am judging you wrongly, I guess that I would be right in believing that you are a liar because I remember you saying that you haven’t opened your real self as much to anyone else. I justified your actions more than you could and I advocated your side. But this was an eye opener and trust me, this only shows that NOW I have judged you correctly than before……

 Thankfully not yours,



As she hit send button on the letter, she felt a very heavy dagger being lifted off her heart. The scar remained but she planned to tend to it soon, it would vanish the day she would see the transfer of her pain and karma playing its role. She really does hope that karma uses her as the tool for the destruction she intended to see.

The reason for this blog is not to hurt anyone or anyone’s sentiments but to wake the anger and self respect that is hidden in the form of sorrow. It is time to not just let go, but to return back with a strong emotion of vengeance and see to it that injustice is served its rightful result well. There is no excuse for hurting others, especially the ones who love you!

You and I

you and i
We walk together in the dark holding hands, ready to create history,

But what we know now, is nothing, tomorrow is still a mystery.


The day always starts with the sun shining bright,

But our togetherness calls for heavy downpour, in all its might.


This great and drastic change, is this nature’s sign?

Are we not right together, or is it purely divine?!


We start off all nice and sweet but I’m scared to see it end,

Its neither you nor me, it has just been the trend.


You show your strength with others, with me you seem fragile,

In your eyes it seems without me you couldn’t even walk a mile.


You shower me with words and feelings that your heart always desires,

I don’t know if I am able to honour and fulfil all that our love aspires.


You held yourself together strong, but your resolve did break

You couldn’t hold yourself back the way your heart started to ache!


A warm fuzzy feeling crept inside I know you felt it too!

You held your hands on my waist and uttered an ‘I Love you!’

आशियाँ रेगिस्तान का…


नन्हे पौधे को प्यार मिला बहोत उसकी बाहर मैं,

पूरे आँगन मैं त्रुन मैं वोह अकेला,

नन्ही सी जान बढ़ी प्यार की मिठास मैं,

हर मौसम मैं ख़ुशी मैं अलबेला…

मौसम बदले दिन बदले, खुशियाँ बहोत देखि,

फिर एक दिन, दिल झूम जाये जैसे, ऐसी बरखा आई

न जाने क्या ख़ास था उस पानी मैं,

हरियाली मैं प्यार कर बैठा उस जल से!

बरखा के पानी को अपना मानकर काटे उसने कई अरसे,

मन मैं उसके फूल खिले जब हु पानी बरसे.

आशियाँ बनाया उसने अपने जीवन का,

ज़िन्दगी एक नयी ताल पे गुनगुनाने लगा वोह भोला!

फिर इक दिन रुतु बदली इस तरह, की झट से जलने लगा मन

न जाने किस समय था, दूर लगा अपनापन.

निश्छल समझा मौसम हा पतझड़ का,

मगर गिरते हुए पन्नो की को और ही थी दिशा.

फिर न आई कभी बरखा उस आँगन मैं,

सूखी डाले राह  देखती रही क्षितिज मैं!

जब लगा की कोई रुख बदल रही है हवा,

वो न थी वर्षा, बस थी मृगतृषा…

उस मृगजल को ताके और चाहे फिर अपने प्यार को पान,

मगर देखना हर हरियाली मैं दिखेगी एक सूखा बेचारा…

तमन्ना जरूर है उसके प्रीत की लौटने की

पर दिखती सिर्फ उसे है सेहरा रेत की!

आशियाँ टूटा, जैसे कांच का हो तिनका बिखरा

टूटी जीने की चाह, मगर मौत भी निकली बेवफा…





Precious like gems, the glint in your eyes,

The touch of your skin and velvet be defined,

Raindrops will wane and the sun shall rise.

Warmth in your arms I feel and I unwind.


Possessed, I am possessed, by your love,

Possessed, it’s magical, it’s unreal

Possessed, I am possessed by your love

Silently a kiss on my lips you seal…


As a stranger you moved into my heart, and it felt just right

It wasn’t vacant, I felt, full of life I was

But now I am complete, it’s occupied, just quite

Our eyes met, and then I knew, as a new person I arose.


Music all around, life is growing its appeal,

I say again, it’s magical, it’s unreal

I am possessed by your love.


It’s lonely in my thoughts when you are not a part of them,

Not my fault, your love is to blame.

बावला मन..

पिया थारे बिना चैन नाही आवे है
थोडा बकत भी बावला मन नाही लागे है
जुदाई हमसे सेहन नहीं होबे है
सारी सखियाँ भी अब सतावे है

चाँद की चाँदनी मैं रात भीगी जाए जैसे
रजनीगंधा की खुशबू से समां महक जाए जैसे
तुम्हारी यादों मैं तन्हाई बीती जाए
तुम्हारी जुदाई मैं जान निकली जाए

ना जाने थारे दर्शन से नैना म़ा सुख कब आवेगा
थारे प्यार मैं म्हारा जीयरा कब जी जावेगा

नैना का काजल आसुअं म़ा बहे जाए है
दिन को रात का अंधियारा छाये है
अकेलेपन मा दिल ना लागे
दीवानी को थारी याद सतावे

हवा का एहसास, बरखा का गीलापन
सपनों मैं तुम्हारी बातें, होश मैं दीवानापन
ना जाने कब फिर होगा मिलन
तुम्हारी जुदाई का घम अब और सहा नहीं जाएगा

ना जाने थारे दर्शन से नैना म़ा सुख कब आवेगा
थारे प्यार मैं म्हारा जीयरा जी जावेगा

Special Thank you to Dear Riddhi Chheda for helping me with the language vocabulary!