What happens when a heart is broken? Tears, bloodshed even sometimes. An illusion is created and you feel that the feeling of loving the idea of love, is love in itself… here she tried, she gave all she could, but she was still incomplete, she was still incapable of fulfilling and fitting the requirement of what he needed. She broke into pieces, shards, with jagged edges which hurt her more than anyone else, she tried to live on, and when she saw how she was being manipulated, she decided to take a step and reciprocate, this time with the clear intention of hurting rather than being hurt. Never ever try to tease an injured lioness they say, the results will not be pleasing at all….!!
She moved on but sometimes anger and resentment pulls you back, and holds you until the answer is equally devastating to the situation. When he chose to remind her of his existence and wish her well being and happiness as she moved on, she wrote him a reply, she hoped that it hurt, and she knows it’s not over yet. She hopes and waits for the day when the hurt is visible and pain uncontrollable for him!
Dear Mr. He,
I am not sure I know of who you are, but I believe, you might have missed out on something important here. The she that you are trying to wish is no longer alive and your name sounds familiar to the perpetrator of her death. She did speak of you a lot more than she breathed and let me assure you, very much like her promise she had given to you, she did love you till her last breath. It is hard to convince a dying person in love that the love and devotion is in itself the poison that is burning her. She was quiet during the end, never let you know her pain, but her silence should not be misconstrued to be her forgiveness. Her demise was not sorrowful, however, it was more of a relief to many to see her leave rather than suffer any longer. However, she did leave me behind as her replacement, a stronger willed, pessimistic, non trusting individual. Her life taught me to not give more than you get and get more practical in life as love is a mere eye wash for your hormones. Let me assure you if she was to live today, she may not have read this email or approved of it and may have continued to be manipulated by your lying behavior of which she was convinced to be true. She walked away into the unknown on the day she realized that her belief in you was a false mirage and that it was her own built. The searing hot blade of breach of trust and her own foolishness burnt into her every day she lived. The shock of her own fault was strong enough to cause her own demise.
Had you really meant those wishes, Mr. He, I don’t believe you would have ever done what you did, you wouldn’t have let her go.
I do sincerely hope that this email finds you in good spirits and that you continue to live your life unaffected and indifferently as you have done so far and that no one else should fall into your web of delusions. May you have a happy life and do not try to contact me or try to bring her back to life at any cost.
This time it will only cost you.
If you would like to tell me that I am judging you wrongly, I guess that I would be right in believing that you are a liar because I remember you saying that you haven’t opened your real self as much to anyone else. I justified your actions more than you could and I advocated your side. But this was an eye opener and trust me, this only shows that NOW I have judged you correctly than before……
Thankfully not yours,
As she hit send button on the letter, she felt a very heavy dagger being lifted off her heart. The scar remained but she planned to tend to it soon, it would vanish the day she would see the transfer of her pain and karma playing its role. She really does hope that karma uses her as the tool for the destruction she intended to see.
The reason for this blog is not to hurt anyone or anyone’s sentiments but to wake the anger and self respect that is hidden in the form of sorrow. It is time to not just let go, but to return back with a strong emotion of vengeance and see to it that injustice is served its rightful result well. There is no excuse for hurting others, especially the ones who love you!